sick and tired

Yeah I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I can’t win. It seems like everything i do disappoints someone i love and i can’t help but feeling completely overwhelmed with a set of emotions constantly. I was trying to becoming more of an adult, but how can that happen when everyone tries to shove their opinion down your throat? All i said was i wanted to join the air force after nursing school, did i ask for any opinions? no. but all of a sudden my life is changing and people are walking out of my life who has always been there and sometimes i wonder where they ever really there in the first place? I am just sick and tired of people always putting me down: school, relationships, working, future life decisions.... everything. I’m just tired of trying to please everyone. So please if you have no encouraging words, get off my back. I have too much stress and too much on my plate to hear the negative things you have to say about me, my decisions, my life and everything else about it. I don’t care mom, dad, Preston, or anyone else who wants to discourage me. It’s my life!


It’s my life!

Arguing sucks!

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1904147,00.html
This article is about all the things divorce lawyers can use in court and I disagree with the whole feel of the argument. The argument is practically saying that its no big deal that divorce lawyers can use peoples Facebook to get evidence for court.I personally think it is a big deal. People post on Facebook because its fun and suppose to allow other people to see what your doing or just hear little snippets of your life. When you bring court into the picture it drains the fun of Facebook and could very well get someone in trouble or make them want to leave it. This article is a very good article, but it just rants about the lightheartedness of getting in trouble.... does that make any since?

Losing the spark

Has anyone noticed how Facebook is losing its spark? I used to check Facebook all the time when I was bored, when I was at stop lights, when I was trying to talk to a friend... just for various reasons and now I find myself not wanting to look at it at all. Even though I have the convenience of it being on my phone, I still don’t check it regularly like I used to. I feel like it is partially due to my class. I’m in English 120 right now, and I love the class a lot but it’s like... I’m being forced to use Facebook for class stuff and that makes me want to check it less... In the Facebook Effect it had said that Mark Zuckerburg wanted to keep the fun in Facebook which is why he decided not to post resumes and allow jobs to search through employers. Now that I’m using Facebook for school and I "have" to check it.... it makes me not want to. I have now kind of lost the fun of Facebook.... which is weird because I love my class.....hmm. What about you, do you think Facebook can be "ruined" if you’re forced to use it for something such as school or work?

Song of the day: Over you- Chris Daughtry
"I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you."

Argumentative writing

So I think I'm gonna write my paper on how Facebook affects divorce. Its said to be that Facebook has a great affect on marriages and I find it very surprising that people let something as little as a social network come between you and your "love of your life". Here is a article that i found about the connection with Facebook and the divorces.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/technology/facebook/6857918/Facebook-fuelling-divorce-research-claims.html

CRAZY!!!


Song of the day: It all comes down to love- Faith Hill
"Straight shot of misery
Some days make a mess of me
I touch the ground when I can find my feet
You know it all comes down to love"

Praise you in the storm

Song of the day:  "Praise you in the Storm"- Casting Crowns

I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Love day

Today is love day and i wanted to share some of my favorite love quotes because im in the mood to be all mushy gushy and stuff! <33 I love You preston <3

1. Love is like the wind.. You can’t see it, but you can feel it.” – A Walk To Remember

2.The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more; that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.” – The Notebook

3.That’s why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they’d call them something else.” – Sixteen Candles

4.“Death can not stop true love, it can only delay it for a little while.” – The Princess Bride

5.It’s a wonderful thing, as time goes by, to be with someone who looks into your face, when you’ve gotten old, and still sees what you think you look like.” – The Bachelor

6.“I would rather have three minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special.” – Steel Magnolias

7. ill be seeing you- the notebook

Song of the day: From this moment on- Shania

"I give my hand to you with all my heart

I can't wait to live my life with you, I can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on"

Ads on Facebook!

The three adds that I came across where as followed; American eagle, Pizza hut, and Dog finder.

The american eagle are some clothes that I wear, mainly their jeans. As you can see it has a picture that says AE jeans will rock you, which I agree with because they are the best form fitting jeans I can buy. My mom always makes me wear bigger clothes than my size but I like my jeans to actually fit. These jeans allow both me, and my mom to agree on a pair...so you can say they "rock me".

The second ad was Pizza Hut!? yeah I like pizza but not pizza hut ! I think they were trying to tell me im too big to fit into american eagle jeans because I eat too much pizza... well thats just rude! haha. OH WELL. Pizza is good but the ad doesnt make me want any.

The last ad on my facebook is the dog finder ad on my facebook which is convinient because I am looking for a new dog as we speak. I was just on google searching for an adoptable dog or pet. This ad is of a small dog. I think this is the cutest ad of them all because look how sweet that puppy looks? its adorable! who wouldnt want to adopt that? This ad actually persuaded me to get onto the petfinder.com and look for a puppy to adopt.

poem by me- changing my life

Here is a poem i made up about changing my life. Hope you enjoy it

Im trying to change my life for the better
Its seems my mood can change with the weather.
One day i feel good but the next i am down
One day i smile and the next day i frown.

Im trying to keep my head held up high
I dont want to disapoint you, i dont want to lie.
It is a struggle, this pain will never end
But a more positive outlook is about to begin.

This is a story about a woman who changed her ways
she prayed and prayed for better days
It seems time can heal the painful stab of a knife
Its all she can hope for, for changing her life.





Song of the day:  Not ready to make nice- Dixie Chicks
"Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting"

Have you ever felt this way?

So I was just in the bookstore trying to find a flash drive (which they dont have, of course when i need one. Typical for my day) and I heard this song that said have you ever felt this way. Now today is an awful day. I failed a major test ( that i studied really hard for), I had to take a quiz (still dont know the results), and i have a test and practical on the same day sometime very soon.

back to the story...

so my day was awful and im feeling all depressed and then I walk into the bookstore and its like this song just calls to me. Its asking me if I ever felt this way and so I listened to it and it said " have you ever held your breath and asked yourself if it will get better than tonight?" Of course with the awesome technology of my superb iphone (ok maybe its not superb but today ill consider it to be) I typed in these words to google... and VOILA! song lyrics and name of song! I was amazed how that song just happened to be on at that exact line on the same day that im feeling extremly horrible. This is the only thing that has made me smile today. Thats how crappy today has been.... anyways I think you should all enjoy it. Its definitely a song geared more towards women. sooo... yeah enjoy! :)

Song of the day: Glitter in the air- Pink
"Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight"

Life isnt fair

I feel like I have never been so busy in my life. I have all kinds of nursing papers do for my pediatric class, all kinds of stuff for English, all kinds of quizzes & test & practical’s to study for in anatomy 2. I feel swamped. Do I even need to mention the whole I work as a CNA at an assisted living on the weekends (which definitely cuts back study time that is greatly needed) and I also have another job as a color guard instructor for a winter guard at my old high school? I feel like I have too much on my plate. I never really understood the famous statement "you can’t have your cake and eat it too" but I’m kind of understanding that life means sacrifice. I have to give up my time with my boyfriend, my time with friends, and I quit working out every day because of time constraints. I just feel miserable with my life at the moment. I’m struggling and I feel like I’m doomed because it’s only the beginning of this semester! Now that I’m finished with my rants on how awful my life is at the moment, I would like to share how amazing clinical was. I was a student nurse over a special needs child and it made me so grateful to have all these experiences and even problems in my life. I am very blessed. This special needs child really kind of changed my thoughts on what I want to specialize in for nursing. I started off (up till today) wanting to be a pediatric oncology nurse. But today showed me how much I really like special needs children and how strong they are and how they need just as much love and care as every other child or person. I know pediatric oncology is something I have laid on my heart to do, but maybe special needs could be a part of my future as well. So at the end of the day I can list to you all the problems I’m having... but on the spectrum of life... how important are my problems? honestly, after clinical, I’ve realized that I’m blessed to be able to be in school and have a support system and all this stuff that special needs children might never be able to realize they have or even be allowed to have. I’m glad I got this experience of dealing with a special needs child... it’s an eye opener.
TO EVERYONE WHO THINKS LIFE HAS ALL THESE PROBLEMS THROWN AT YOU AND LIFE IS UNFAIR, REMEMBER IT IS UNFAIR BUT SOME PEOPLE HAVE IT WORSE THAN YOU.

Song of the day- unanswered prayers by Garth Brooks
"Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers"

Review Social Network

http://search.ebscohost.com/login.aspx?direct=true&db=aph&AN=54117610&site=ehost-live

This is the article i found on ebscohost about the social network movie.

Song of the day: Hate (i really dont like you)- Plain White T's

"Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don\'t like you
Now that it\'s over
I don\'t even know what I liked about you"

Wordle

Wow it took me FOREVER to figure out how to get this all fixed up to put on here!

My wordle is just a few songs put together that i believe represent me.

Can you guess what the 4 songs are?

Song of the day:  Conspiracy- Paramore

"Explain to me this conspiracy against me

And tell me how I've lost my power

Where can I turn? Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainties I'm so unsure of
Tell me why I feel so alone cause I need to Know to whom do I owe"

so you have a bad day

so today is not the best of all days. Life, school, and my job are all kind of pulling me down. BUMMER. here is a song that i thought should be shared with everyone who feels the way i do right now.

Song of the day: The impossible- Joe Nichols

"Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happen just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible"


First assignment- Visual Rhetoric

The oh so classic and delicious Chick fil- A cow. This picture has a message that is suppose to persuade the individual to stop eating cow and eat chicken. For those of you who lived somewhere up north or have never experienced the wonderfulness of chick fil a, they are famous for their chicken (hints the name). The cow is the slogan because they want you to stop eating at places that serve burgers and enjoy the places that eat chicken. They choose the cow to represent the cow saying "hey don’t eat my family". The writer of this is the person who made up the chick fil a add. It could be the idea of the actual inventor of chick fil a, or it could be the designer who works with the owner. The writer is unknown. The audience however is for everyone who enjoys eating burgers to come enjoy chicken. I think the whole image of a cow holding a “eat mor chickin” sign stands out. Period. Plus that cute little sign is written all sloppy to look like the cow wrote the sign. Now this image, (pause to add drama) is visual rhetoric! 

Song of the day: Chick fil-a by Tim Hawkins

"Chick-fil-A. I could eat that seven times a day
Where the people laugh and children play
Oh, I'm in love with Chick-fil-A
Suddenly, I need waffle fries in front of meeeee
With some nuggets & a large sweet tea
Oh, Chick-fil-A. You set me free"

mothers and driving

Just yesterday I was riding around with my mother in the car and she set all the wrong examples. No seat belt, talking on the phone, driving with one hand, looking around, no turn signals, doing the california roll through stop signs, and of course speeding. I always tell her when she is being a bad driver and setting a bad example. ya know what she says? "your suppose to do as I say, not as I do" typical mother talk right?

I think this comic is what explains it all.  Just because your older doesnt mean you drive safe. Experience means nothing when it comes to driving because anything can happy.  Now this isnt for all mother, its also for fathers.  The point of this whole blog is: parents just dont know everything they think they do.
The Song of the day:  Parents just dont undestand- will smith
"You know parents are the same
No matter time nor place
They don't understand that us kids
Are going to make some mistakes
So to you other kids all across the land
There's no need to argue
Parents just don't understand"

two-day

So I just finished all my work and decided I should try to write again. The other night my dad and i were talking and he made a quote that I really liked. It was: " apologizing doesnt mean your wrong, it means you value the relationship more than being right". After i heard this i thought... dad your right! (he doent get that often since my house is my mom and three girls, he almost always gets an argument after everything he says). My dad said this to me because my boyfriend and I were in a fight and I wasnt in the wrong( in my opinion) and I ended up apologizing just so he would talk to me (he didnt talk to me for two days). I knew that what I was arguing for wasnt wrong but I decided that not talking to him was stupid over an argument as stupid as that. So even though i wasnt wrong, i apologized. Guess what?  almost a whole day later he apologized too. (of course i posted this quote as my facebook status because I know he gets my updates through his phone so I knew he would read the quote). I just thought it was cool that my dad said that quote during a time I was actually having an argument and he didnt even know I was in an argument. my dad is like superman. Big, strong, protective of his girls, and simply can fix or destroy anything. To hear something kind of sensitive coming out of his mouth was... kind of nice to hear.  through everything I have put my dad through (getting a cat, getting my ears/ belly button peirced, getting a tattoo, sneaking out of the house, smoking a cigar on my 18th bday, and other stupid teenage things...) my dad loves me and I always be his little girl.

Song of the day: my little girl- Tim Mcgraw
"You beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road that'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl"

better is one day

So i origionally made a blog on the 1st of january 2011. The same day i created it i posted my first blog. that same day i deleted my blogger account. I feel like there is nothing i need to say that is important enough to be blogged about. I like to talk but i dont know what to talk about. I dont like being the typical cliche and therefore i dont want to pose and pretend i know what im doing on a blog. because i dont. The truth is, the only reason i am back to blogging is because i have to for english. I dont think this is something im going to be good at but im willing to try. Im a very open minded person but i also stick to what i believe when it comes to indefinite decisons. somethings wont change, just like some thing will change. I plan on posting the song i am listening to when i blog. so i can share with you the music i enjoy. if you dont like it... ok then dont listen to it. you dont have to tell me how much my music sucks. i like it and thats all that matters to me. I pretty much have a song for everything in my life. for the people i meet, for the decisions i make, for each specific break up, for each family memeber ect... Each song i have a wide range of stuff i listen to but most of the songs are specific for a certain thing in my life. So please dont put down my music, it means something to me.

song of the day : Moments- Emerson drive

"I've had my moments, days in the sun
Moments I was second to none
Moments when I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do"